He: Hey….where have you been lately??
She: {furious from the inside but acting calmly}: work …..You know!
He: Me too! I'm so busy these days.
She: Oh, really?! {trying to contain her anger so as not to yell at him} anything new?
He: bla bla bla ……………..his words don't actually matter……it has been always like this….he disappears for long to come back again when he likes…..when he decides…and she keeps waiting and wondering….wondering whether he is ok…..whether she made a mistake to drive him away….whether he sensed her love and so he freaked out and decided to abandon her, forever!!!! Why do I have to wait for him?? I hate this feeling…the feeling of being a follower…yes, a follower……is it the right word?? He is the one in control…he is the one who is taking all the decisions….and I'm the one abiding by them!!!! He keeps going away…and I keep on waiting….and whenever I decide to let go, he just appears out of no where!! As if there has been no distance…..as if he lost his sense of time!!! She hates herself when she feels vulnerable…..whenever he takes the lead…..at the beginning, she thought she is the one in control….in control of her heart…..she is the one who is capable of maintaining her self composure…..acting indifferently, but with the passage of time, her heart started to block all those flimsy facades, her reason became clouded by his presence…..her heart is dominating all her senses…..all her decisions…..she started to feel helpless…..trying to reach out…even if she felt humiliated….IT ISN'T RIGHT…. THIS IS RIDICULOUS…..HAVE MERCY ON YOURSELF…..!!!! Mere words resonating in her mind….nothing is working….she keeps following…drowning…..his absence causes these dark moods of hers….she used to have them anyway!!! She is giving excuses…OH, MY GOD!
He: Hey….are you there??
She: Never mind…..just thinking.
He: of ???
She: {holding her desire of asking him why he was away} I missed you so much!!!
She: {furious from the inside but acting calmly}: work …..You know!
He: Me too! I'm so busy these days.
She: Oh, really?! {trying to contain her anger so as not to yell at him} anything new?
He: bla bla bla ……………..his words don't actually matter……it has been always like this….he disappears for long to come back again when he likes…..when he decides…and she keeps waiting and wondering….wondering whether he is ok…..whether she made a mistake to drive him away….whether he sensed her love and so he freaked out and decided to abandon her, forever!!!! Why do I have to wait for him?? I hate this feeling…the feeling of being a follower…yes, a follower……is it the right word?? He is the one in control…he is the one who is taking all the decisions….and I'm the one abiding by them!!!! He keeps going away…and I keep on waiting….and whenever I decide to let go, he just appears out of no where!! As if there has been no distance…..as if he lost his sense of time!!! She hates herself when she feels vulnerable…..whenever he takes the lead…..at the beginning, she thought she is the one in control….in control of her heart…..she is the one who is capable of maintaining her self composure…..acting indifferently, but with the passage of time, her heart started to block all those flimsy facades, her reason became clouded by his presence…..her heart is dominating all her senses…..all her decisions…..she started to feel helpless…..trying to reach out…even if she felt humiliated….IT ISN'T RIGHT…. THIS IS RIDICULOUS…..HAVE MERCY ON YOURSELF…..!!!! Mere words resonating in her mind….nothing is working….she keeps following…drowning…..his absence causes these dark moods of hers….she used to have them anyway!!! She is giving excuses…OH, MY GOD!
He: Hey….are you there??
She: Never mind…..just thinking.
He: of ???
She: {holding her desire of asking him why he was away} I missed you so much!!!
You're right. You should do something about it...
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